Wedding Anniversary #18 would have been this Sunday.
This fact started beating up my mental self this past Sunday. I went to an art show at an outdoor mall and stopped at a restaurant on the way home. While eating my burger, I started to get teary-eyed. It was all I could do to finish my burger, lemonade, pay the bill and get out of there.
It has been three years since Joe moved to heaven and it upsets me that our anniversary is affecting me in such a painful way. In my opinion I should just feel a little sad instead of all this pain.
Hopefully getting these thoughts and feelings down on paper will help me deal with pain, loneliness and a longing for the little things.
Yes, the longing for the little things such as hand holding, the good night kiss, and cuddling while watching movies together is back. The intensity of the longing after three years amazes me.
Life has not been all bad this week. There have been several good things happen:
- We had a good discussion today at the local job seekers group.
- My on-line career chat friends and I had good discussions Monday & today.
- A good friend emailed me that Monday’s slideshow put a big grin on his face.
- I mailed out a few thank you cards to show my appreciation to people that have impacted my life.
There Is Always Hope
Hope that the rest of the week will be filled with numerous good things.
May the remainder of your week also be filled with good things and joyous people with whom you can share those things.