While writing Thursday’s post about how this blog helped me heal, I was in and out of a negative state.
Because it forced me to not only examine how I’ve healed but whether or not I truly have healed.
Yes, I know I have healed as much as possible from Joe’s passing. However, others do not think I have healed.
Exhibit #1 – This Blog
Other people see this blog as proof that I have not healed one bit. They see it as my attempt to hang on to or resurrect Joe.
Well that is not true. This blog was never intended to be about him, it was always intended to be about my journey through grief, extended unemployment and any other adventures life throws my way. Sharing my adventures is the best way I know to educate others about widows and our experiences. This way people know how to help widows and what to expect should they suddenly lose their spouse.
Exhibit #2 – Dating (NOT!)
They also see that fact that I have not dated as proof I have not healed. Single men my age are a rarity. Now they might not be such a rarity if I hung out in bars – UGH!!! Been there, done that. I spent 5 nights a week at the local disco during some of my college years. (Hey! It was great exercise.) If I am to date again, then God will put a man in my life somehow, someway, someday. (Ooppss…someday never comes.)
Knowing I have these 2 pieces of evidence against me, was dragging me down last week as I wrote the healing piece.
So what did I do to get back into a positive state of mind?
- I listened to music – “Elvis Country (Legacy Edition)” is my latest favorite.
- I also listened to a speech given by my friend Jeff that is on my MP3 player. I would listen to it at night while waiting to fall asleep.
- I updated my “Awards and Performance Portfolio” located in the top menu. Being creative is a great way for me to change my thinking.
- I made sure I kept up with the daily devotionals. Currently I am reading through the Bible in a year with a devotional from “Words of Hope.”
- I also made sure Rommie and I had some extended play time, time away from job searching and blog writing. Playtime with her is a great way to get out of a funk.
The healing post is written and I shared why it was hard to write, so on to a new, fresh, exciting topic – like what color I will chose to paint my nails tonight.
Have a joy filled week and remember:
“The human spirit is stronger than anything that can happen to it.”
George C. Scott
Coming tomorrow: “My Escalator Speech”