Living With My One Broken Heart
In the new devotional book The Way of Abundance, a 60-Day Journey into a Deeply Meaningful Life, Ann Voskamp asks at the end of the Day 4 Devotion,
- How are you living with your one broken heart?
- How is God asking you to step toward an abundant healing?
These are the first questions, I’ve been able to answer. The other 3 days left me sitting at my computer in a stupor saying “Duh! I don’t know.”
My One Broken Heart
How am I living with my one broken heart?
A heart that’s been broken more times than I can count in the last decade. First with Joe’s passing, then a year later being laid off due to a departmental reorganization, and then years of struggle rebuilding my career. So the answer to “how am I living wth my one broken heart? is:
Life has been messy for the past few years. It’s what happens when every year is worse than the last one and you do not know what to do to improve your life. Fortunately, I have a job but as much as I love it, there are bills that can not be paid. Changes are coming soon which hopefully will mean a brighter future.
How is God asking me to step toward an abundant healing? The answer to that question is simple, painful and frustrating –
He is asking me to put my trust and hope Him.
Trust and hope are the two things that have slowly disintegrated in my life the last 4 or 5 years (I’ve lost track).
It is hard to trust and have hope in God when everybody else’s life is flourishing and yours is heading down the crapper, no matter how hard I pray, how long I pray, or the wording of my prayers. But I am called to put my trust and hope (confidence in a future event) in God even if he changes my residence to the city’s sewers.
So those are my answers to Ann’s questions. I will be blogging about questions to other devotions as well.
What are your answers to these two questions?
(Disclaimer: I am on Ann Voskamp’s book launch team and received a copy of some devotions for review.)
Bio: Michele Kearns is the founder and HUG© (Hope Unites Globally) Award-Winner of JoyReturns. She shares her widowhood adventures hoping to encourage widows to move through grief and rebuild their lives. A graduate of Kent State University with a Bachelor’s degree in communications, she’s used those skills while managing call center teams, facilitating a grief support group and helping small businesses with various writing and administrative assignments. Michele is a bookworm, lover of chocolate, red roses and golden retrievers and is an amateur photographer.