Blessed and Alone: A Summary of 2014

A few weeks ago I read an article, I think from WordPress, about summarizing 2014 in a few words. I had already thought about the words that best describe this year.

After much reflection 2014 for me is best described as the year of being blessed and alone.

Some of my blessings in 2014 were:

  • good health
  • a wedding
  • two babies (not mine)
  • blog growth
  • a roof over my head
  • good health for family
  • seasonal call center job
  • Rommie being in good health
  • Faithful Finish Lines Challenge
  • good health for my 10 yr old car
  • the women of Faithful Finish Lines
  • freelance work for a marketing company
  • the women of 31 Days of 5 Minute Freewrites
  • the friends who helped with my job search
  • the trainers and co-workers at my seasonal job who were always available to answer questions

These are a few of the blessings God bestowed upon me this year.

However, 

The sense of aloneness I experienced this year was worse than any year since Joe moved to heaven. It is hard to describe this aloneness that has taken over every nook and cranny of my body and soul.

I understand God is with me and together we can do anything but it does not feel like He is with me.

Hope For 2015

There is hope for next year – there is always hope.

It is hope that I cling too because:

Hope is an expectant desire; a confidence in a future event; a ground for trust and confidence; to think; to look forward to with trust and expectant desire.”

ahopefortoday.com

A hope that God eliminates this aloneness.

A hope that He blesses me in multiple ways.

 

Comments

  1. I hear you.

    There are too many blessings in my life to count, but sometimes I do feel terribly alone. Pain generally doesn’t let me sleep more than 20 minutes at a time, so I berth in the living room, on an ottoman. Lets my wife get a good night’s sleep.

    Those middle-of-the-night wakings can be awfully lonely times. I read, or write, but still…it’s like I’m all by myself in a big theater, waiting for God to start the show…but the stage is dark. What a goat of a metaphor!

    I don’;t try to imagine or manufacture God’s presence at those times. I accept the idea that maybe He’s busy with other stuff, and that He’ll get back here when He can.

    Meanwhile I’ve got to carry on,like the servants who were given money to invest. Duty calls; He’s given me a lot of the aforementioned blessings, and I’m supposed to be His representative until He gets back. I’ve got power of attorney on those blessings, and I have to use it.

    I hope your feeling of alone-ness will end.And I hope that the blessings continue to rain down. You deserve them.

    • I pray God will bless you with strength to carry out your power of attorney responsibilities this year. May one of those blessings be hours of quality sleep.

      Joe had terrible back pain the last 2 or 3 months of his life. Most nights we slept in separate bedrooms but that did not stop me from waking up when he did. It is why I got sick after he was admitted to the hospital. My immune system was shot from work, caregiver duties and lack of sleep.

      Wishing you, your wife and the animals joy in 2015.

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