According to Merriam-Webster the definition of overwhelm is:
2 a : to cover over completely : submerge
Yes, that is what life is like after becoming a widow. Even 4 ½ years later “overwhelm” describes me and my life. I am covered over completely with a never ending “To Do” list. It is never empty and varies from day to day. Tasks must still be done whether I am well or not. No sick days for me.
This is not a typical day’s list as there are no typical days in my life.
- Make the bed,
- Empty the trash,
- Clean the bathroom,
- Dust and run the sweeper,
- Figure out what to wear to a networking event next week.
- Rewrite my elevator speech for the 1 millionth time.
- Empty the dishwasher,
- Load the dishwasher,
- Play with Rommie (this is the only fun thing)
- Read emails keeping current with job search and social media information via articles and newsletters
- Update LinkedIn,
- Send out Tweets on Twitter,
- Tweak the resume for the next job application,
- Weed the flower beds (at least I have someone who mows the yard)
- Oh wait! I forgot to rehearse the elevator speech!
The list just keeps getting longer and longer. I cross one off and replace it with 2 more.
Just when I think I can go to bed, I remember something in the washer needs taken out and hung up to dry. So downstairs I go. Opps forgot hangers, back upstairs I go, now that I have the hangers, back downstairs I go.
Through it all I keep praying for the strength to deal with the feeling of being “overwhelmed.” God gives me the strength to get done what I can on any given day.
Favorite Time Of Day
Then finally my favorite part of the day comes – bedtime. There is nothing like crawling into bed at day’s end. It is then I say my prayers of thanksgiving for the strength I had that day. Then just as I am about to fall asleep I remember I forgot to wash my face and brush my teeth 😉
So if you know of someone who is a widow and it has been several years since her husband moved to heaven, don’t think she now has a lot of time on her hands because odds are she too is overwhelmed.